I feel like a newbie all over again.

As I mentioned before, I have been on and off teh program for years. I am currently living in South Korea and teaching. My self image here has taken a beating due to the fact that nothing here fits and the shape of a Korean woman is something I'll never be. As well, over the past year i have been working out harder and harder but gaining weight. So I started to hate myself for my failure.

Now before you think 'muscle weighs more than fat'. I don't buy into that excuse. I made plenty of excuses myself. Truth is the more i worked out the hungrier I became. I just read a study that this is a problem in women and not men. I didn't write down what I was eating. Snacking became a full time occupation, and lying to myself became second nature. In short, I cheated myself.

It is hard here because there are bakeries on every corner. Koreans love their bread, cakes and donuts. But they don't have low fat, or fat free desserts and I am a sweet person. There is tons of chocolate to appeaase my greatest desire but this doesn't help me to my end goal.

Anyways the reason I feel like i did when I first started is the results of this weeks weigh in.

When I first came to Weight Watchers, I had no hope. I'd given up hope years earlier. So the second week in, when I lost weight I was shocked. Thats how i feel today. Since i pressed restart on the weight button three weeks ago, its been slow. But this week I lost 2.2. lbs for a total of 2.6 lbs lost. This means I will be able to fit into my wedding dress that I had to buy a year before the wedding because that was the last time I was home in Canada. Talk about taking a risk.

So I am happy and very elated. I am only o.4 from the first goal I set for myself. When i achieve this goal, I will get the birthday dinner I had to postphone.

Happy WW.